Yesterday, our first day back after some travel, we weeded the garden of a surprising amount of green grass, and protected our little 4′ x 8′ raised bed with vole-defying plastic sheeting. We planted just a few of our vegetable seeds, in the hope that our mild weather will continue and allow the germinating seeds to take advantage of the long hours of sunshine we now enjoy. The night darkens not long before midnight now, and when I roused in morning’s light today, the clock read 4:28. When we finally got up it was snowing.
I left for a visit to San Francisco and Helena in mid-April, a final ride on the snow machine to my car. Returning, I found a new world emerging from under the snow. The new sounds are as striking as the sights: birdsong and mating calls from all sorts of birds I don’t recognize; even the ravens have a new call that sounds like a drop hitting a water-filled bucket. Muck slurps from my boots, buzzing flies swarm, and the outhouse sounds more, well, liquid. I was relieved to see the river still has its sheath of ice, so I haven’t missed the drama of break-up that I’ve heard so much about.
I’d like to stay and watch each day’s evolution, but we are headed to Anchorage soon on a journey we hadn’t planned. Gary’s recent CT scan, routine follow-up from the sarcoma he had a couple of years ago, showed a spot on his pancreas, a tumor. The tumor will be removed, together with his spleen, and only then will we learn whether it is cancerous.
Cocooning with Gary through the winter here, I have felt protected, safe, untouchable. But life is inherently dangerous; it must be so. What lies outside the cocoon is not yet clear. But as we emerge we will endeavor to face it with strength nourished by the love and beauty we have found together, and by your good thoughts and prayers.
I will keep you posted.
Darren Johnson said:
Very touching post. I wish you the very best going forward.
I have enjoyed reading your posts. You are a very good descriptive writer. I am sorry to read that the evil foe Cancer is threatening your peace. Will be keeping you both in thought and prayer that when everything is removed there is no evidence of cancer.
Roberta Livingstone said:
I just wanted to say how much I enjoy your postings; your observations bring home to me how precious each season is. You two are remarkable for your commitment to take life more slowly, and engage directly with nature’s gifts and challenges.
I am sorry to hear about Gary’s diagnosis, and will send my thoughts and prayers for a very good outcome from the surgery.
Karl Klaesius said:
You have a very good talent for writing and expressing yourself and I too enjoy very much reading your posts.
Please know that both Sheila and I are keeping you and Gary in our thoughts as you move ahead.
It would seem that in your cocoon, that all evil would be kept far away. But unfortunately that is just an illusion. I’m sad to hear of the tumor and will keep you both in my prayers as you face this next phase of your relationship together. God bless you both. Linda
Was just thinking of you recently, sad that I hadn’t seen an update in some time (as I’m so enjoying living vicariously thru your adventures!). Know I’ll keep you and your sweet in my thoughts and prayers. Bob’s cousin in Anchorage is a nurse but an OB one so no chance of receiving her care. I’m certain she’d be a great shoulder to lean on if needed.
Steve Hibshman said:
I am so sorry to read this about Gary. Cancer can be a nasty thing, as my dad well knows. I wish you and Gary all the best.
Had our “annual” Soc Gen dinner last weekend with Dean, Lisa, Tom & Gina. Of course, you and your amazing journey were a big topic of conversation. You and Gary will be in our thoughts and prayers in the weeks ahead. Praying for a positive outcome!
Thank you all for your kind words and good wishes. It means so much to both of us.
Good luck on Gary’s doctor visit. Saying prayers for you both. I have been reading all your posts, but never thinking about commenting. I couldn’t pass up this opportunity. I enjoy reading everything you have been posting. Take care, Geneve